Boy’s Don’t Cry….

First I was afraid…. I was petrified
Kept thinking I could never live
without you by my side

But I spent so many nights
thinking how you did me wrong…I grew strong
I learned how to carry on

and so you’re back
from outer space
I just walked in to find you here
with that sad look upon your face

I should have changed my stupid lock
I should have made you leave your key
If I had known for just one second
you’d be back to bother me

Go on now go walk out the door
just turn around now
’cause you’re not welcome anymore
weren’t you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye
you think I’d crumble
you think I’d lay down and die

Oh no, not I….I will survive
as long as i know how to love
I know I will stay alive
I’ve got all my life to live
I’ve got all my love to give
and I’ll survive
I will survive

It took all the strength I had….not to fall apart
kept trying hard to mend
the pieces of my broken heart

and I spent oh so many nights
just feeling sorry for myself…I used to cry
Now I hold my head up high
and you see me….somebody new

we’ve talked on the phone last night nearly an hour. i was skimming down to my heart-beat just to hear voice again. she asked me why that i’m full of laugh at time i’ve ade my excuse though i can’t tell her the complete one. i just can’t tell her that my heart still in sorrow. i’ve lived with it for a month maybe and still can’t get rid of it. laugh and smiling was only a cover, felt better to improve my condition. one thing for sure, i do know that i still love her, but i will survive………..

ah…gila juga luh by??
masak gw disuruh caaari yang bening-bening?? emangnya gw cowo apaan?   :P
kita kan laki-laki setiaaaaaaa….

setia ditinggalkan……hehehehehehe….

Ya Allah… Seandainya Telah Engkau
Catatkan Dia Milikku, satukanlah Hatinya Dengan Hatiku. Titipkanlah
Kebahagian Antara Kami Agar Kemesraan Itu Abadi. Tetapi Seandainya
Telah Engkau Takdirkan Dia Bukan Milikku, bawalah Ia Jauh Dari
Pandanganku. Luputkanlah Ia Dari Ingatanku. Peliharalah Aku Dari
Kekecewaan.

trim’s buat i*a …. and d***y

sore ini tiba-tiba aja menjadi sore yang indah buat gw..bogor yang hujan rintik, seolah menggambarkan kelegaan hati.

gimana nggak? gw yang selama ini berpikir bahwa mungkin itu semua karena mungkin sifat-sifat gw yang sulit untuk disukai orang lain…. ternyata? tidak semuanya betul…

ahhh..leganyaaa….

well…i’ve told her, i’m sorry….

to be accepted or not…. that’s another thing, i have learn my lesson.

yang gw pingin dia tau adalah kemarin gw terlalu takut kehilangan dia, jadi karena itu gw berbuat hal-hal yang bodoh. well…mungkin karena gw terlalu sayang? dunno…

yang pasti..gw sadar, yang udah terjadi ga akan bisa diubah, gw juga ga tau gimana hatinya sekarang. masih lanjut atau tidak? nobody knows…

kalaupun tidak…as the song said.. "i will survive" …at least i’m trying to now… hehehehe….

ahh….trimakasih allah…berilah hambamu kekuatan yang lebih.. untuk segalanya!!

-celoteh penjahat-

lagi jangar….lagi jangar..